It’s April end time, today deserving ones received promotion letters and ratings, and sadly I don’t have a promotion letter yet after 4.5 years of almost selfless service! Almost selfless because my organization has not been considering me deserving for a promotion till date and every year I have been contributing a little more of me towards its growth and mine too… But i have been receiving nothing and the organization is growing. Thus selfless.! So is that that I don’t deserve!?
Alas, the point is that I have disappointments to face. Disappointed by myself that inspite of 4.5 years of service, i am still unable to predict or understand the ongoing political drama at the workplace. Gujarati idiom says – bole ena bor vechaye (the one who can speak can sell his/her fruits) – which i didn’t took seriously. However people who take seriously seemed to me as naggers, who keep nagging and creating fuss about petty things. However these are those who “achieve”. Achievers aren’t the ones who go in detailing, precision or hard work, as you think you do! They are those who nag, speak (in a way that people “listen”, even if it includes shouting or it includes whispering in boss’s ears) and “show” more than their service. It’s an art and everyone shall learn this along with the 7 secrets of success or the 5AM club or blah blah like books which though inspire a lot but don’t work in practical life where you have to work with people like these and face politics like this..
I cried on my result, a lot. My husband is calming me down and inspiring me to fight (we are talking over phone as I have to still sit in the office /organization which is not even considering me an eligible candidate for the position I deserve). He has been supportive throughout but what I end up thinking about is – Log kya kahenge.!
People may think – itna kaam kaam krti hai.. Dikhati hai… Par office se milta to nhn kuch.. Problem is ki yaha logo ne to dekha mera kaam aur dedication but organisation ne sideline kar diya. Sorry to divert in Hindi. But a sad person expresses better in his/her mother tongue.
Well i realised that the reason I am still hurt is that I have not heard the early warning signs from my organization that if in a year it is not supporting you (my initial years), it won’t be supporting further for a person like me who is zero in politics, tactics of pleasing a boss, show more than service. I should have taken a step earlier which I am planning now. So, i am here to warn everyone, (don’t) cry and cry until you succeed. Take a step forward in the name of you. Don’t wait. Empower yourself. It’s hard in the start, messy in the middle but gorgeous at the end. Take responsibility for the future and make sure you don’t cry again. I will make sure I don’t cry again! Just because people can’t see what you/I possess.
They will suffer. You/I may prosper.